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Date:2008-12-17 09:31
Subject:Snow, snow, snow!
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Mood: pissed off

Ok so it was nice to wake up this morning to the beautiful wonder called snow, or at least that was till I went out side and had to clean the cars, shovel and go to work. Now it is kinda starting to feel like christmas, but I get to spend christmas alone. My parents are going to see my brother and his family and I was going down to my fiance home. But his parents are putting their foot down because I would have to bring my dog. I am not going to leave her alone for two whole days without me! Anyhoo I am kinda pissed cause his dad is always talking about how I am a waste of his time and money. I dont know what to do! GRRRRRRRRRRRRR! So christmas eve and christmas is just me the dog and my cat. Merry Fucking Christmas!!

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Date:2008-12-16 15:49
Subject:ARMY STRIKES AGAIN!
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Mood: pissed off

Ok so I have finally had enough with the army! I swear to god they are so dumb! They think that they are all hot shit and that everyone wants them? I mean seriously! they just keep going like they are better and dont even get me started on their wives! they are worse! Funny all the Marine wives I talk to are very kind and understanding towards everyone, they dont snap, degrade, call names and pick fights. But of course the army starts shit! My fiance just got an email from my ex, who is an army medic, he called me names and told him that I was trying to break him and his girl up! It is so stupid! When we broke up and then started talking again we made sure that there was nothing still between us. And when I found Paul he kept trying to get me to break up with him and even sent threatening messages to him. WTF?!! I swear these dumb ass people are wearing me thin and I cant take it! I am with a Marine and by a show of events they are better! Time to face the facts the Marines always will be. It takes less Marines to do a better job than the army.


nough said!

SEMPER FI

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Date:2008-08-20 14:31
Subject:WTF?!!
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Ok so my brother and his family came home today, now he is being rushed to the hospital by my dad because he believes he has kidney stones again. My mom is sitting on her ass at work "too bad for him," she says. WTF?!!!! Im freaking out and he is my brother, he is her son and she doesnt care!!!! OMFG!!!! I want to scream! I'll take the fucking car and leave her here so she can stay at work with no worries. She is such a bitch, I seriously wonder what my dad saw in her. She wants to fuck us all over, no joke. She wants all of us dead or sick or something. She has no feelings WTF?!!

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Date:2007-09-10 08:48
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Mood: ecstatic

Ok so here it goes. I spent the weekend in New York at Fort Ti for a reenactment, I figured it would be the same old same old. The sulters were there so I'd shop and take part in the battle then go to 2nd Mass for their Tavern. Well I completely broke down about 6:30 Saturday night. Vicky came and sat with me and talked to me. So then she said that I needed to go meet people. So off we went to 2nd Mass and sang some songs. But then the British made a lot of noise so we went over and there I was introduced to three guys, a 21 year old, a 22 year old and a 23 year old. I was told to have my pick. Vicky said only as "Friends", but hey. Then they shot off the cannons for some sort of think for the public and the native americans went wild down below us. It was a crazy start to the night. So I go back to 2nd Mass and Vicky and Henry take a walk. When they finally come back, we stayed for about an hour. Vicky wanted me to talk to the guy next to me but he smoked. So we went back to the British camp and had some fun. Their songs are really bad and get worse as the night goes on and they get more drunk. Surpising? Not in the least. So finally the creepy guy with all the weird and very bad and gross songs gets too trashed and leaves. By now it is midnight and people are leaving to go to bed. Thats what Vicky and I tried to do but they kept us around. I had my eye on a guy named Richy, he is the 21 year old. And he seemed to be staring at me a lot so I tried to ignore it because Vicky said he was trouble. But Anyhoo Vicky is trashed, and she is talking to a guy next to her and she asked him his age, he was 18 and she was so happy she was like, "Heather 18, yea?" I said no my age or up. Richy asked how old I was and I told him I wan 19. So finally Vicky caught the drift and asked if I liked Richy, I nodded my head a little and she made him sit next to me. About five minutes of talking I found out that he is going to Dartmouth College to become a Doctor and that he had dated girls outside of the hobby and hated it and he dated one girl from anouther British regiment for three years, But the last six months she cheated on him and he went to surprise her on her birthday and her frind had to tell him. I felt soooo bad so I told him about what Flister did to me and how much of an ass he was. So Richy asked me to take a walk and Vicky was like, "I need to watch them if anything happens Henry will be mad," so the whole group of us took a walk but some of Richy's friends held the group up. He took me to the 1st redout and it was creepy as hell during the day and at night it was even creepier. It was said that in that redout was where the "Ladies From Hell," (a highland regiment) made theie last stand and died. It was said that you could still hear the bag pipper and see the men fighting. Like I said a really creepy place. So we sat down on the higest point and talked. Then came the group they walked right by and went into the woods. So Richy was really nice and asked if he could kiss me and I said yea. It had been so long since I had kissed someone like that and it felt good. So he tried to lift my skirts and hit my knee and I jumped, myy knee is really ticklish so I told him to stop and he did. Then the group came back and walked right by. Now Richy is wearing a huge whit shrit and I have my cap still on. Well they walked by at least four times before I finally got creeped out and ran for the road, but before that Richy and I did a lot of talking, and I mean a lot. He thinks that the fact that I want to be a firefighter is cool and that I know what I want and that I dont want to settle for less is really sexy. I felt kinda weried but I let it go. So we walked back towards the camps and stopped to kiss and hug, talking the whole time too. She he took me to the best view of the Fort and talked some more and kissed a liitle. He asked how long it would take for me to get over my ex and if I would keep him informed. He kinda sorta asked me out but didnt. I really think that I like him a lot but the next even it Saratoga and maybe I will be there and maybe him, well I think that he will be. But Vicky will be pissed if I go because she knows that I would be there to see him. She kinda went after him when we all got back to camp. She said that she would never take me to the british side again and Timmy said that they didnt want her and then Richy put his arm around me and said that I was welcome any time. Now that set her off. But I finallt got her to leave and go to bed. The next mroning when I talked to her and swore that nothing happened and that he didnt try to get me to sleep with him she was fine and told me what happened at Hurberton. She was the one that made all the moves towards him and she didnt know if I was strong enough to tell him no, but I was. So it rained that day and Vicky went to say sorry the night before after we left the fort. I walked with another woman of our group and then walked back to see him, I used the excuse that I was looking for vicky. When Richy saw me he had a huge smile on his face and seemed happy to see me. So Flash foward to about 10 and the rain had stopped. I was talking to Joe from 10th Mass and telling him about Richy when he came from around the next Cookfly. He said that I left my hat and he set down a hat. I said that it wasnt min because mine was under the table he said oh well you have another and walked off. I called him a Jerk he asked why and I said because you wont talk to me, his answer was "I guess you'll just have to chase me" so I did. I was in bare feet because my shoes and stockings were soaked. I caught up with him at the cannons. He looked even better in day light and he had such beautiful eyes. He said that he would be back after his saftey inspection. and then said Vicky must have set him up and I agreed. So here comes another down pour and Henry makes the desion to leave when the weather breaks. So I get a pen and a peice of paper and write down my numbers and run over to the British camp. I tell him that we are leaving right now and that I wanted to say goodbye. So he goes to empty his tent and I kinda run after him and I slip on the mud and he caught me. He told me to give him a huge before I get wet and I move my blanket and said too late, so he said before you get even more muddy. I gave him a hug and asked if he wanted my number, he said yes and That he didnt have paper on him or a pen. So I handed him the paper, he said thanks and kissed me once more before I ran back to help pack up. So that was my weekend and I really had fun and hope he calls me soon. But that night he tasted sooo good, I will never forget my first time at Fort Ti.

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Date:2007-08-22 14:32
Subject:BLAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!
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There is nothing to do at work and i am bored out of my mind. GGGGRRRR I hate days like these. And no one is online either good god! Man what am I to do? lol well thats is about it for now!!!!!BBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

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Date:2007-08-20 16:15
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Aug 25th! Save the date! lol. This year I am going to have the perfect brithday. Everyone of my friends and I are going out for dinner and then what ever we decide to do next. Not fuck ass boyfriend and backstabbing bitches thats my rule!YAY! I cant wait until then OMG it is going to be fun! I'll post more soon!

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Date:2007-08-16 10:06
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Well my mother is yet again being a bitch. She woke up late and got pissed that I wanted to take a shower. Then last night she fought me because work is being dumb with her vacation time. But I am going to tell my dad not to book my ticket and they should go out for christmas and I'll stay home. Its not like they are going to miss me at all. But what ever I dont care any more. She wanted to go for Thanksgiving and I only have two days off from college. So she would dupe me for more time for herself. What ever she is just a bitch and I hate her. I cant wait to be gone from here and this fucking life.

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Date:2007-08-14 14:44
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Mood: bored

I have no clue about anything, I dont know today was one of those mixed up days. I have been listening to audiobooks on Itunes to keep me going though work. It is helping a little bit until I get so into it that I stop working without thinking. But yea thats whats going on. Oh that little brat melissa has finally gotten a facebook account and I blocked her. She is suck a nosy bitch and needs to get over herself, I mean seriously. WoW three fucking internships, which by the way you usually dont get paid for. As I have a before the addition of glycerol to 40 hour job and a part time one one weekends. What ever she is just a slut and a back stabber.

In other news Alex and Mike are going down to North Carolina this wendsday. There going to see his brother and then the next week I turn 19 and there are only 2 years till I can legally drink! lol

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Date:2007-08-10 16:13
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Ok so there is about mmmm.....45 minutes left of work and I am bored. I just folded about 20 or so papers for the catalogs. I cant package the catalogs because Warren has all the mail boxes and I need one to get them.
Ok my parents baught me guiness, YAY! :D But other than that there is a trip to Osgoods Fabric store Sunday and I hope that I can get some fabric so i can take the class on how to have stays. Now I need to bone the ones that I hav just so that I cant get the right messurments.
I want to go out tonight and I need someone to call me so we can go oout. I want to see a movie tonight.

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Date:2007-08-10 09:04
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Well work sucks, my mom yelled at me cause she didnt know what I was talking baout and then she talked over me when I tried to tell her. I am pissed. She is such a bitch and a hipocrite! she expects everyone to know what she is talking about and then if you ask her to repeat it or what she is talking about she flips out at you. She needs a fucking attitude ajustment! Its not me!

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Date:2007-08-08 16:43
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Mood: blah

So lets see, nothing really major happening...yet. I am still waiting and still hoping. I really wish that dream was true but with my luck, oh god. I really miss Jason and hope that he comes home soon. Lets see theres about 15 minutes left of work and I am bored, it feels like a friday. OH! and I might get a tattoo this weekend! I am thinking about going up to the Lions den but the Purpple Scorpion (sp?) is closer. All the more to think about tomrrow and friday.

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Date:2007-08-07 09:37
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Mood: tired

Well last night I had a very odd dream. It was about the fair and the RMCP and Flister, Melissa, Alex, Mike, Andrea, Travis and Peter. It was so crazy. i was walking through the arena with Peter from the fire department and I met a guy names Chris, a RMCP, and he let me help him. Then Peter got called away. Chris asked if I could come see him later tonight and go out. Me of course I said yes, DUH! but then I was sitting in the arena with mike and alex. I introduced them to Chris and they talked. Next thing I knew flister came running after me as Chris turned to leave. HE was saying that Chris would never be good for me and her was the best that I would ever get. I told him to fuck off and the chris knocked him out. Well lets just say things happened that night.
Next I was at home and chris came there and asked to marry me. It was crazy but I said yes and Then I was in one of my college classes and The teacher made the comment, "Seems like you know how to get them, huh?" No one go it but my come back was, "My dad could never keep a secret could he?" Then I told every one and Travis looked all hurt and then I woke up.

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Date:2007-08-06 10:07
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Mood: tired

Well I came home early from OSV. I was really sick and tired. But iy felt good to sleep and get some real food and take a nice shower. I met some new people, I finally met Matt. He is diffrent from what I thought he'd be like. Next I met Maria, she is with the 9th Foot (british). She was really cool but I didnt get to see her before I left. Next was Barbra, she was with 2nd Massachusetts (American). I had tons of fun with 2nd Mass. They know how to have a fun time! LOL

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Date:2007-07-27 13:45
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Mood: pissed off

I cant do this any more. My fucking mom threatened me about getting fired for USBio and then turns around and tells me that I am doin great. Oh and she also told me to start looking for a new job and guess what! I found one. 11pm-7am at SH. I cant fucking wait! But I want to just pick up and leave, go yo North Dakota with Dan and Sam. At least I know that they love me and that they are proud of me no matter what. At least there i can be a fire fighter and hopfully find someone who loves me. I cant take Massachusetts any more, I just cant. I need to run away from her and everything else. I just need to leave.

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Date:2007-07-25 14:21
Subject:Fuck everyone
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Mood: pissed off

So this new girl starts at work and my mom has taken to her. She fucking loves this bitch. I really want to scream! She is always laughing and happy with my mom. Fuck her She cant even clean up her mess! she leaves her old coffee cups after work for some one else to pick up! AND MY MOM LOVES HER! the next time she is hungry she can have carly make her a salad. Im done! more to come later.

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Date:2007-07-24 13:30
Subject:Work and Drama
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Mood: anxious

Yea I am at work and thinking...a lot more than usual. Charlie enlisted in the Navy and I still havent heard from Jason. But he is almost done with his basic, so thats good. Hopfully I can talk to him soon. But back to Charlie. He took me to my prom and was really protective of me, especally when it came to Colin and Melissa. He is a really good friend. But what if.. what if there was something more there than a friendship and what if I just let it go. There is so much to think about and not enought time and no one to tell. I am soo confused about everything. I have no clue and need someones helpful advice...soon! I am going to drive myself crazy! I really want to talk to Jason and see him but I cant! AND! on top of everything there is college with a bunch of guys. Wonderful! What am I going to do? My life is pulling in so many diffrent directions and I cant figure out whats up and whats down. I also feel as though Ive put myself in a bad spot, caught between many diffrent wants and desires. God I hate work!

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Date:2007-06-18 21:04
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Well lets see, Jason never called and now he is leaving Thursday and I am flying out of Logan Wednsday. Perfect timing. My sister-inlaws mother died in a motorcycle accident on monday. So yea things are a little crazy! I really want to see Jason and kiss him and tell him how I feel, but with one day left I am at a loss. God I hate this, I could lose him forever and I cant find away to tell him with out being face to face. God please help me.

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Date:2007-06-15 10:15
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Well today is starting good enough. I ate half of my breakfast and drove my mom to work. my stiches dont hurt as much any more but they itch like hell! But that means they are healing. BLAH! SO I got a message from Jason today! YAY! he gave me is e-mail address so I could e-mail him while he is at basic. I really am worried for him cause he most likly will ship out to Iraq some time this winter. God that is really scary. But he says he is trying to make time to hang out before he leaves wendsday for Fort Jackson.

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Date:2007-06-13 20:11
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Mood: crushed

I wasnt sure this would work, I havent written in a long tinme. Looks like I am back, and I have more to write about now then I ever did. Lets see I broke up with Alex cause he is a lair and a cheater, I wont talk to melissa cause she is a backstabbing bitch cause she had sex with Alex behind my back. AND they BOTH lied to my face about it. But hey thats life right?

So that chapter is over and I graduated from NST and I am on my way to NSCC for fire science and I cant wait. So many hot guys and me the only girl. YAY! But after that I want to get my RN. SO six years of college, not too bad. Maybe I'll go inot the Coast Guard as an Officer, but hey life is full of twist and turns.

One just like Jason. Yea a new fling...kinda. He is shipping off for Basic next Wendsday and i am trying to find a way to tell him that I love him. We went to high shcool together and I used to beat him up in Coach Worths math class. Coach got a kick out of it. I guess parents know better than we do. Hate is some times love hidding. Well he is off and I am scared and worried for him. I really hope he calls me tomorrow so I can talk to him and all. But I dont know, things are just so crazy here.

OH! I had my gallbladder out last friday. Yup that was fun. 45 minute procedure turned into 2 hours. I was swearing for three days. But I am better now, I am walking better and even staying awake longer!

And all of this just after graduation. Welcome to the real world I guess. lol

~Heather

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Date:2006-07-18 18:50
Subject:LIFE
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Mood: everything you cant explain

What I hate is that suddenly I came to the relization that Alex will never marry me. He will either break it off, or just keep giving excuses. There really is no reason for me to stay with him for long, I mean yea I love him but I cant do that to myslef.

In other news the dream I had last night was pretty good. I had a room mate in college who was from England, named Tina. We were best frinds and she made me her brides maid at her wedding. So I flew over and did the whole wedding thing and meet a hot British guy who was the best man, his name was William. Lets just say we got to know each other that night. Then he asked me to marry him and I said yes. Crazy but I would love for it to come true.

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